Tuesday, September 24, 2019

It's What We Do

I love Dr. Seuss's book "Oh, The Places You'll Go." I love how it shows the kid rocking it sometimes and other time when he is having a really rough time. I feel like that book parallels my life. I feel like I have set out on my 'own.' I have had some really great moments, and some moments that were really tough. I have done waiting, and changing things up. I feel like sometimes I have moved mountains. However, what I love the most about this book is how he laces the real life hard time with the truly awesome amazing times that are just as real. Its how my life is. It is how my day is. It is how sometimes my minutes are.

Our life is full of so many wonderful things right now. We have "the girls", "the twins", I coach soccer, the girls play soccer, Gaupo's job is something he still loves, we can afford to live here in Colorado, we have a wonderful finished basement, we have amazing weather, I have Gaupo, he loves me, we have cars that run, and we are so blessed.

My girls are doing well in school. Tia has always enjoy school and Kindergarten is no different. She is always ready to go in the sense that she wants to go and be there, but sometimes actually getting that kid 'ready' to go is another story. She milks all the play out of her day that she can. So, trying to get her to get her 'sides' and snack for school is like pulling teeth, because she would rather be playing. Kylee is doing so much better this year. We are actually getting homework done this year, and most days without tears. She progressing really well in reading and in her math concepts. She still struggles a bit with the math facts, but it just takes lots and lots of practice. She will get there. She is loving playing tetherball at school. She comes home almost everyday happy. I can hardly believe its the same kid as last year. I love it. Sometimes we still have bad days, or moments, but I am just so grateful that the frequently is so much less.

Soccer is a lot of fun for our family. It makes our schedule more crazy with soccer three nights a week and games on Saturday, but it is so fun to support our kids in something. I have loved watching them learn new skills and get better almost every practice and game. They aren't superstars, but they keep going and they seem to have fun. I really enjoy coaching. I like working with the kids and having somewhere to focus some of my brain power. I love having a little time each week, where I have just a little break from all the mom-ness. I coach Tia, so I am moming, but I don't have the whole posse. I wish that I knew more about soccer technique, because then I could actually help the kids with theirs, but oh well I don't and so we just make the best of it. This last Saturday the girls had their 2nd games of the season and both got more involved in the game, both had fun and looked to have improved. Gaupo was able to be there the whole time which is so great. He is so supportive of this soccer adventure. He is the one who babysits for my practice. He always come to Kylee's practice as soon as he gets off work. He may not be a player or coach, but without him the players and coaches in this house would not be doing what they are. I am so glad we put the girls in soccer. I think the timing of it was great and I think it is good for us to have something to work on togther.

The twins are growing and growing. Kade has finally really started to crawl. I say finally because Abby has been doing it for almost a month I feel like. She is super good at it and Kade is just starting, but he can do stairs fairly well, whereas Abby has no idea how to make herself go backward. It is really interesting. Both twins love solid foods. However, they have been getting more of an opinion on what they like and don't like and that isn't always the best. I was really trying to wait till 9M to give them chocolate, but Gaupo nixed that (like he has for every kid so far) and gave them their first try this past Monday (8.5M). They loved it. Abby can get to sitting on her own, and has recently started saying the sound mama-mama. It doesn't mean me, but hey maybe it will turn into that. Kade's rotation is getting getting better but his tilt has started to come back a little. His helmet is doing a great job with his head. He is still getting around and making tons of noise. He hasn't done real clear babble like Abby recently, but he makes lots of sounds and noise. I love playing with these two characters. I love taking them to the park to swing. I love making them laugh, playing with them on the floor, having them try new foods, and watching them totally do their own thing. They are such fun kids, but boy oh boy do they have personality.

Gaupo's work like I said is going well. He still loves what he does. I feel like his job has really helped him become what I always knew he could be. He is a good leader. He is supportive to his boss. He gets in on lots of good discussions and helps make changes. He does a lot and I think he is continuing to grow and progress. He is also quite the dad. It is great to have his help with dinner, dishes, feedings, kids, bedtime, and baths. I love seeing him in the afternoon and getting to talk to him. I love watching him take time to play with his kids and watching how much he worries about them. I am learning and I hope one day our kids can see it--is that a lot of what he gets after them for or seems to be anxious about is because he is worried about them because he loves them. It just comes out sometimes kind of stern. However, he children adore him and they love having him around. We are so lucky we get to see him so much.

I get to be a mom all the time. I get to play with my kids, coach soccer, and try to take care of our house. I have a hard time wanting to do housework because I feel like as soon as its clean there is another meal, kids come home and drop there stuff, I don't know it just gets messed up so fast I can't keep up, so sometimes I just don't. I love the chances I have had to read some good books. I have been baking probably way more that I should. I just told Gaupo I should probably wait till Sunday to cook more treats, and I am not sure I can do it. I love having time to cook, but I don't always cook the healthiest things, because frankly I don't find that as fun to make and I get way less complaining about treats.

Life is good. I love my kids and my husband. I feel so blessed to be where we are and doing what we are doing. I feel so lucky to be able to be a mom. I am not a perfect mom, but I try and I feel like I do lots of good things. I love that my kids want me around and that we enjoy being a family. As always, I am one blessed woman.

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

Making Time

We really haven't been up to much since I last blogged. It is pretty much school, soccer, babies, and work. However, we seem so busy and I am learning a lot about life and how there really is only time for the things you make time for. Here are a few examples.

Negative example first. I really want to help Kylee to get in the habit of reading her scriptures herself. I plan to do that by beginning to read them with her and I figured we could double count it for some of homework time as well. Or even just do it right before that. Well, I get busy and can't focus, so I tell her to just grab her book and tell myself we will do it when were done. Well, day 3 here and we still haven't ever done it. So, I need to make time for it. It can be done. It will only take like one minute, but I can't seem to grasp the time, but its important, so I need to make time.

Soccer coaching. I think I actually might really like it. I don't know if I always want to coach my own kids because that is tricky, but I love learning the drills, seeing the kids, and the want to be good at it is something I haven't felt in awhile, so its cool. I have made time to try and be a good coach. I am not perfect there are many things undone, but I asked questions at coaches clinic. Gaupo supported me in going to coaches clinic. I study out drills and plans. I have even tried to spend some time playing with my kids doing it. I love those times. I wish all the moments after (like trying to get them to bed) were as golden and blissful as those times we play, but its not, but I am also trying to get better there.

Reading. I haven't had major time to read because of work and kids. However, right now I don't have work and I have babies on 2 naps and kids at school, so I have time to read and I love it. I am loving the good books. Still need to learn to pace out the books a little, but it is still fun to read.

Homework. Homework is like a thorn in my side. However, I have decided that I am not going to talk negative about it in front of my kids and I am going to do as  much as we can tolerate of it. So, we make some time for it. It is pretty amazing what Kylee can do when there is a prescribed time and when its up we are done. She does good work and knows and understands lots of things. There is time for homework we just have to make it.

Therapy. I often have a hard time doing the therapy work I need to with Kade and Tia, but when I think about it I can make time to do it. It take a little work and concentration, but I can.

Not the most up beat post here because I am kind of struggling trying to figure and balance everything, but it will get better we just have to keep moving forward, and keeping making time and making sure our priorities are in order.