This week has been kind of a wonky one. I was in a bit of a funk for the first part of the week. I think it has to do with a hormone I was taking. I started it last Thursday to see if it would help with my bleeding and while it did I think help with that it caused some serious side effects. One was being easy to anger. My kids couldn't do anything right. They are by no means perfect but everything bad they did was like I wanted lash out irrationally at them. Also, I couldn't feel joy. Most days even the really bad ones there is a moment of joy something that went and felt right but on these days there were a ton of things that went right, yet Gaupo would ask me how my day was and I was like it feels crappy. I don't know why but I just cant feel happy. On Wednesday night, I decided that enough was enough and I needed to stop the hormone to see if it help. It was seriously a night and day difference. We were still late to school, but instead of being irate and panicked about it we just rolled with it and did the best we could. I could plan the activities I needed to work on, I got my dinner prepped in the afternoon, and once again I felt light. Even in the last couple days I have had some rough patches but I feel so much more lightened about it. It is like even though I still want to get angry its more of a choice and I can stop from acting in anger when I couldn't before. I can think ahead again. I don't know for me its like, well those hormones may help with my some womanly issues I am having, but it is destroying my relationships and me, so its not worth it. We will figure out something else. I have worked to hard at trying to be present, patient, organized, and building myself to stop now.
In other things this week, Tia had an orthodontist appointment that Guapo took her to. It didn't turn out well. They couldn't get the brackets that we needed on, so now we are waiting again for them to be made, so we can get her teeth moving again. It has been a slow, slow, somewhat agonizing process. I hope it is worth it. Kylee was sick on Monday, so sick she stayed home from school and went to the doctor. The rapid test they did, didn't return a result. Tuesday she was feeling better and went to school. However, about 10 I got a call telling me she was positive for strep, so I debated a lot about what to do. I picked up her meds, and then picked up her when I picked up the twins. She was pretty mad about having to come home, but she survived. I did let her go to the middle school parent meeting and instrument petting zoo, but made her wear a mask. Then there was a 5th grade concert and activity days that I also let her attend but made sure she wore a mask. She wasn't happy about wearing a mask, but she didn't want to miss anything either. It was such a tricky day to be sick and I still am in debates about if we handled it right.
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| Kylee has a the green mask. |
We finally, had a golden weather day yesterday. It was so nice outside. We took our first family bike ride as a family of 7. It was pretty fun. The twins are getting good on their bikes. It is probably time to take off the training wheels, I just don't have the time and weather to be consistent yet, so we will wait just a little longer. We rode to a nearby park and enjoyed playing their and Hope went done her first slide and scooted on her first playground equipment. Later Tia noticed out neighbor Isabella out and wanted to go out and ride with her. By the time, the night was said and done there were 7 kids in the backyard playing, we had talked to our neighbors who think we should have a block party (sounds great to me), and we had grill food for dinner. It was a much needed spring day with lots of good spontanious neighbor connections. I love that my neighborhood is getting more kids and that my kids are old enough to play its awesome.
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