It has been awhile since I have had a chance to write about whatever is going on or whatever I am feeling like and you know what I am kind of excited except for the fact that all the thoughts in my brain right now revolve around me and how I am dealing with, and doing things. So, I am sorry if that is how this post turns out but sometimes that is how it goes.
Tonight I am kind of wigged out. I shouldn't be but hey it happens. I am wigged out because my Tia had two poop accidents today. They happened while we were not at home, and she dutifully told me after but aughhhhh it is so frustrating. It almost seems like just when I think she has it she has a rough time. Really this shouldn't wig me out because hey she is only like 21 months and I understand wanting to play rather than do what I need to do, but still. Honestly, it doesn't stop or start with just that. Tia is such an energy ball. She just goes and goes and goes until someone makes her stop and even then she will fight it. Tia knows exactly what she wants and doesn't want. Sometimes she tries to communicate it to me and sometimes she just screams. Like tonight she had no interest in dinner until there was applesauce and cookies involved, and by then it was over and the last of everything had been given out. So instead of going peacefully on her way, she starts trying to get what Kylee has. She climbs on the table, plays with things she shouldn't, and is silly beyond all reason. Tia is super smart and knows how to get me. Man that in and of itself drives me nuts. I should be bigger than that. A 21 month old should not be able to get my goat, but oh man can she. Tia is also a very delightful child believe it or not. She can play be herself. She has a genuine smile that can make you smile just about anytime in any situation. Her laugh is so cheery. Her and Kylee are too cute together. They make each other laugh, scream, play, be silly, and stay up way to late. They have figured out a little bit of this siblingness and boy howdy are they LOVING it. Tia really is super smart and determined. She loves to go outside, climb, be independent, and move. I really am blessed to have her.
I don't want you to get the wrong idea and think that only Tia can send her mother over the edge. Like yesterday when Kylee went into Tia's room while Tia was napping because her Kitty needed diapers. Or the fact that sometimes she seems super needy and doesn't want to try to do things on her own or do hard things. It is also slightly frustrating that she gets her sister to to be naughty. This girl can get me frustrated too, but it is just different and it all has to do with timing. Kylee rarely does really bad things, but she is great and choosing horrible, horrible timing. For example, two bites from being done with a meal says she has to go bathroom and has to have the light on, and of course if I am still helping Tia eat then she goes poop and need help wiping. Or she runs around and gets her sister all wired up, then at the last seconds slips her shoes on and is ready to go, but of course now Tia is really hard to get. She is also usually the exact opposite speed of me. If I want to walk leisurely she wants to run, if I am in a hurry she is slower than molasses in January. Oh man, this girl is quite the character. I can't believe that the two little girls I have are so opposite yet go together so well. It is almost scary how well their oppositeness allows them to get along.
Which is another conflict I have. My girls are getting really good at playing alone, but they are kids and so sometimes alone means trouble. Also, sometimes I want to play too, but I end up just killing the fun they were having which breaks my heart. Sometimes I want them to play and leave me alone and they wont. Their playing together can often lead to on or the other of them getting the other to do something they shouldn't. They laugh and are silly at good and bad times. Their togetherness is both crazy and fun, but sometimes a little too crazy. Bath time probably needs to be split, but it is too hard to handle on my own, so it isn't and those two can sure make come up with some crazy things to do.
Because Gaupo doesn't normally go with the topic here its hard to include him in the update, so I will just give one. He just started school again. So, in about 2 years we will have our second masters degree and it will be in Library and Information Science. His job has been a little crazy lately, but luckily not too crazy, so he is still home at good times and for the most part in good spirits. He is dealing with my up and down days very well. He is supportive as always. Although, sometimes I think he wishes his house were just a little calmer when he got home, but such is not the case. He still loves his calling in the elders quorum and really enjoys the brethren he gets to serve with. I am so lucky to have this guy, because even when I am wigging out, super happy, not happy, etc. he sticks it out and supports and loves me through all of it. He is a great dad. He tries really hard to do whats right for his family and put the Lord first. He is a great example to his girls.
In other updates, my sister Kitt moved to Colorado. WAHOOO!!! We loved seeing her this weekend and are really excited to see more of her. Luckily she is really chill, so when my life is kind of crazy and my kids are little energy balls she pretty much just goes with it. I don't think we are as relaxing as her previous getaway locations, but luckily we don't have to compete with them and so this is what she gets and my girls really do love her and wonder why in the world she can't be here all the time. I keep trying to think of ways to get away with just her even if its just for a bit, but I doubt that will happen and that is okay I guess.
Props to you if you made it all the way here. If you are concerned about me, my sanity, my motherliness or any of that know that really I am fine and even today was good just tonight kind of shook me up, but writing about it has helped me see that it really is kind of silly even though the feelings are very really. I really love being a mom. I am so glad I get to stay home and that these are the problems I am having. I am grateful for the scriptures and the Ensign. I am grateful for prayer and my calling in nursery. I love that I get to be me and that even if sometimes I think everyone else seems so much better than me, I am still glad I am me. I will make it. I am a good mom, sister, wife, and daughter. I will always try to do better, but I am normal. I do have ups, downs, stand stills, stand offs, and all kinds of other things. I love life, so grateful I get to live it.
Tonight I am kind of wigged out. I shouldn't be but hey it happens. I am wigged out because my Tia had two poop accidents today. They happened while we were not at home, and she dutifully told me after but aughhhhh it is so frustrating. It almost seems like just when I think she has it she has a rough time. Really this shouldn't wig me out because hey she is only like 21 months and I understand wanting to play rather than do what I need to do, but still. Honestly, it doesn't stop or start with just that. Tia is such an energy ball. She just goes and goes and goes until someone makes her stop and even then she will fight it. Tia knows exactly what she wants and doesn't want. Sometimes she tries to communicate it to me and sometimes she just screams. Like tonight she had no interest in dinner until there was applesauce and cookies involved, and by then it was over and the last of everything had been given out. So instead of going peacefully on her way, she starts trying to get what Kylee has. She climbs on the table, plays with things she shouldn't, and is silly beyond all reason. Tia is super smart and knows how to get me. Man that in and of itself drives me nuts. I should be bigger than that. A 21 month old should not be able to get my goat, but oh man can she. Tia is also a very delightful child believe it or not. She can play be herself. She has a genuine smile that can make you smile just about anytime in any situation. Her laugh is so cheery. Her and Kylee are too cute together. They make each other laugh, scream, play, be silly, and stay up way to late. They have figured out a little bit of this siblingness and boy howdy are they LOVING it. Tia really is super smart and determined. She loves to go outside, climb, be independent, and move. I really am blessed to have her.
I don't want you to get the wrong idea and think that only Tia can send her mother over the edge. Like yesterday when Kylee went into Tia's room while Tia was napping because her Kitty needed diapers. Or the fact that sometimes she seems super needy and doesn't want to try to do things on her own or do hard things. It is also slightly frustrating that she gets her sister to to be naughty. This girl can get me frustrated too, but it is just different and it all has to do with timing. Kylee rarely does really bad things, but she is great and choosing horrible, horrible timing. For example, two bites from being done with a meal says she has to go bathroom and has to have the light on, and of course if I am still helping Tia eat then she goes poop and need help wiping. Or she runs around and gets her sister all wired up, then at the last seconds slips her shoes on and is ready to go, but of course now Tia is really hard to get. She is also usually the exact opposite speed of me. If I want to walk leisurely she wants to run, if I am in a hurry she is slower than molasses in January. Oh man, this girl is quite the character. I can't believe that the two little girls I have are so opposite yet go together so well. It is almost scary how well their oppositeness allows them to get along.
Which is another conflict I have. My girls are getting really good at playing alone, but they are kids and so sometimes alone means trouble. Also, sometimes I want to play too, but I end up just killing the fun they were having which breaks my heart. Sometimes I want them to play and leave me alone and they wont. Their playing together can often lead to on or the other of them getting the other to do something they shouldn't. They laugh and are silly at good and bad times. Their togetherness is both crazy and fun, but sometimes a little too crazy. Bath time probably needs to be split, but it is too hard to handle on my own, so it isn't and those two can sure make come up with some crazy things to do.
Because Gaupo doesn't normally go with the topic here its hard to include him in the update, so I will just give one. He just started school again. So, in about 2 years we will have our second masters degree and it will be in Library and Information Science. His job has been a little crazy lately, but luckily not too crazy, so he is still home at good times and for the most part in good spirits. He is dealing with my up and down days very well. He is supportive as always. Although, sometimes I think he wishes his house were just a little calmer when he got home, but such is not the case. He still loves his calling in the elders quorum and really enjoys the brethren he gets to serve with. I am so lucky to have this guy, because even when I am wigging out, super happy, not happy, etc. he sticks it out and supports and loves me through all of it. He is a great dad. He tries really hard to do whats right for his family and put the Lord first. He is a great example to his girls.
In other updates, my sister Kitt moved to Colorado. WAHOOO!!! We loved seeing her this weekend and are really excited to see more of her. Luckily she is really chill, so when my life is kind of crazy and my kids are little energy balls she pretty much just goes with it. I don't think we are as relaxing as her previous getaway locations, but luckily we don't have to compete with them and so this is what she gets and my girls really do love her and wonder why in the world she can't be here all the time. I keep trying to think of ways to get away with just her even if its just for a bit, but I doubt that will happen and that is okay I guess.
Props to you if you made it all the way here. If you are concerned about me, my sanity, my motherliness or any of that know that really I am fine and even today was good just tonight kind of shook me up, but writing about it has helped me see that it really is kind of silly even though the feelings are very really. I really love being a mom. I am so glad I get to stay home and that these are the problems I am having. I am grateful for the scriptures and the Ensign. I am grateful for prayer and my calling in nursery. I love that I get to be me and that even if sometimes I think everyone else seems so much better than me, I am still glad I am me. I will make it. I am a good mom, sister, wife, and daughter. I will always try to do better, but I am normal. I do have ups, downs, stand stills, stand offs, and all kinds of other things. I love life, so grateful I get to live it.
Haha, this is awesome. thanks for writing :) and, you are a GREAT mommy and wife! AND sister!
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